Tomorrow is TEE day.

What’s that you ask?

TEE stands for transesophageal echocardiogram. It also stands for YOU CAN’T HAVE CAFFEINE FOR 24 HOURS PRIOR OMG HOW WILL YOU MAKE IT THROUGH THE DAY.

It seems to be a fairly simple procedure, similar to an endoscopy, which allows the doctor a closer look at my heart to distinguish what type of hole we’re dealing with. Basically, it’s an internal echocardiogram, they go down through my esophagus and up under my heart with a small camera.

And let me tell you, as the mother of two very young boys, I am so looking forward to being sedated for a few hours.

Bring. It. On.

I am so relieved it’s finally here. It was supposed to be last week, but of course I had to go and get sick, so reschedule we did.

I know nothing has changed since we’ve found it. And I’ve gone a whopping 33 years with it. 33 years that included two pregnancies, major surgeries, Redbull and vodkas, smoking, birth control pills, and a million other not-so-healthy things. But, now that I know it’s there, I’m always convinced I’m on the verge of collapse.

It’s the not knowing exactly what we are dealing with that’s freaking me out.

I have included a diagram to better explain to you what’s going down tomorrow.

You’re welcome.

I’ll take all the good thoughts you’ve got that what they find is no big deal, yo.

xoxo